"Fate"

[vinniebatman]

Title:  Fate
Author: vinniebatman
Fandom: AtS
Rating/Warnings:  Teen, Character death, angst
Prompt: #36, "Death Must Be So Beautiful" ~ Oscar Wilde from fanfic_fiesta.
Disclaimer: I hired a pack of ninjas to kidnap the owners; they were threatened with hot poker torture, chainsaws, and an exorcism. I now own all. Thank you. *Doctor's Note: Patient exhibits delusions of grandeur and any claims of ownership are pure fantasy. No harm is meant. Seriously, it's better than her throwing rocks at people.*
Summary: Despite all his strength, there is one reason above all the pushes him toward survival.
Wordcount: A true 100 word drabble.
A/N:  Sometimes I make up characters that I don't plan on ever writing.  While creating one, I came up with a specific idea, a fear that I wanted to use, which led to the creation of this.  Also, any character judgments made aren't my opinion of said character, but rather are his own feelings regarding himself.

Death coats the alley in blood, dust and ichor.  Angel's fingers scrabble over the slick, uneven asphault, pulling his broken body toward the shadows.  It would be so easy to collapse and let the sun burn him to ash, dust and beautiful oblivion.  Connor is living the life he deserves.  And those Angel cares for have all died or forgotten him.  It would be so easy.  But it's not out of love and nobility that he claws his way forward.  He's a coward. terrified of the uncertainty of death, too weak to face an eternity in Hell.

Comments

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

This is really good work, sweetheart!


Gabrielle

[vinniebatman.livejournal.com]

*blushes*
Thanks, I'm glad you liked it.

[jans-intentions.livejournal.com]

Wow, great work. I often forget how very formidable you are when you take up your pen. xx

[vinniebatman.livejournal.com]

Formidable?
Wow, thanks, I'm very flattered, especially since it's coming from one of the writers I greatly admire.
I'm not a big angst person, so it usually comes out in drabbles and ficlets.
Thank you so much for the feedback.
Alice

[neevebrody.livejournal.com]

OK, I'm not sure which fandom this is, but I loved the words. I love drabbles and ficlets and feel that you can sometimes say everything you need to say in that given space. This proves it. Lovely!

[vinniebatman.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I'm glad you liked it!
It was for Angel the Series, which I didn't see too much of.
But thanks so much for the FB!
::leers at your McShep icon::

[serialbathera.livejournal.com]

great work sweets :)

[vinniebatman.livejournal.com]

Thank you!
I'm glad you thought it up to snuff.
And where the hell did that term even come from?
Anywhoo, thanks!
::hugs::
Alice

[serialbathera.livejournal.com]

You're welcome.
I am not sure where that phrase came from so I looked it up.
http://www.worldwidewords.org/qa/qa-upt1.htm
http://www.randomhouse.com/wotd/?date=19960712

because I don't want to type up fanfics right this second...heehee

you're welcome again love
::hugs::
-A

[http://users.livejournal.com/_beetle_/]

Wow. And Angel would see choosing life as a weak moment, as cowardice. But really, he's just a hope-junkie.

[vinniebatman.livejournal.com]

I think it's not just the hope, but pure fear. He's been to hell (or something like it), and I think that it's the last thing he'd want for eternity.
I think even while he signed away the sanshu, he was still thinking that perhaps his redemption would at least earn him heaven.
I'm glad you liked it (at least that's what I gathered from the "wow").
::hugs and eskimo kisses::
Alice

[http://users.livejournal.com/_beetle_/]

DAMN!

You go from the dignified elegance of: Death coats the alley in blood, dust and ichor. Angel's fingers scrabble over the slick, uneven asphault, pulling his broken body toward the shadows. It would be so easy to collapse and let the sun burn him to ash, dust and beautiful oblivion. Connor is living the life he deserves. And those Angel cares for have all died or forgotten him. It would be so easy.

And leave us not with the expected sort of platitudes, to the effect of "he'll soldier one because the only thing that matters is what he does. No, you hit us like a pork-chop between the eyes, with:

But it's not out of love and nobility that he claws his way forward. He's a coward. terrified of the uncertainty of death, too weak to face an eternity in Hell.

With Angel's ultimate cowardice.

So better, ironic and perfectly done. Another one goes into memories. Fantastic!

[vinniebatman.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think letting himself die and not soldier on would be cowardice, but in the end, he's a catholic boy who became a demon and spent centuries in hell. Despite his bravery, he still fears hell. Even if I'm not sure it exists. But hey, its canon.

*shrugs*

Whatevs.

~Alice~